The Life of Being 20 and Single.

A friend of mine recently wrote about love and it got me thinking to do the same. That and another friend told me she'd write a story inspired about my love life if I blogged about it so here I am, and I wasn't gonna pass up that opportunity ha ha.

So the beginning of love starts with dating. I personally don't date much. Seriously, I'm not kidding. I didn't go on my first date until I was seventeen. The next date was a girls choice dance and after that was like two years after graduation. Exciting huh? Actually the opposite of. That two years of lack of dating was contributed by not expanding demographically, at all. 

So this year has been the year of a little bit more effort put into dating. Not a lot, but we're slowly easing into it. What was nice about it is that me and my friends as a group made for of an effort with dating which is good cause I couldn't do that by myself, plus I couldn't go out on the town trolling for men by myself, that'd be weird. I can't even tinder without feeling weird unless other people are around, but that's mostly cause tinder is entertainment rather than potentials ha. 

So this summer we had the glorious "Summer of Romance". It's started out as a joke and then it got WAY serious cause of flirting class but all in all we did date more this summer. Out off all the dates I went on (I make it sound like so many, it really was like 5 dates) only two of the boys did I actually want to date. One was a douche, the other had no spark. Unfortunately those two things leave you single with no potentials. 

Dating is the pits. Mostly for people like me. How do people even get out of their house and casually meet people and find the one? Is that real life? Obvi. People get married because of it. 

Currently my circle of friends know no people to set me up with and I can't meet people on my own, that's crazy. Plus the only boys I want to date are unobtainable whether it be because their out of my league or I have no connection or both, usually both. So what is a girl to do. Basically the way I cope with it is watching netflix and trying to keep myself busy with two jobs and school. 

Ha things will change but it takes time and I'm not particularly a patient person. Also I hate dates. Do people really like dates? Just dates, not dating. If I could skip the 1st, 2nd and 3rd date and just jump into getting more serious and being comfortable with each other that would be glorious. Skip all the awkwardness cause I'm definitely awkward on dates. I charm people over time, initially you're probably gonna think I'm a freak, or some social zero ha. 

The dating game is rough, especially when you're not good at it, and when your family seriously wants you to get a man too. Talk about pressure. 

Part Four of Six.

And here we go....

16. Something I always think "what if..." about?

There's probably not one particular time that I think "what if" about. I'm sometimes an super awkward person or I get really shy around some people (I have to tell myself people are people and they shouldn't make you nervous, it never works though). And usually I'm shy or awkward around those people is because I care about their opinion of me which is so stupid and I kind of hate myself for it but I'm trying to do better. Mostly I think "what if" I had been myself. I'm a likable person ha, if you can handle sarcasm and wit then you'd love me. Ha. But in the "what if" situations I was being a reserved version of myself those people never really got to know me. 

17. Something that I'm proud of?

I don't know. Ha this a difficult question. Probably just that fact that I've always made school and my future a priority ever since I was young. Part of it is just having certain expectations for myself and I know in order to do that I have to prioritize my life in a certain way. 

18. A problem I've had?

Retail therapy or food as therapy. When I have a bad day I reward myself with new clothes or with a shake or something ha.

19. Five items that I lust after?

Kate Spade Bag.

Michael Kors watch or Bag.

Having a nice house.

Having flawless skin.

Pretty much everything on my pinterest boards ha. 

20. My fears?

When I got to college I realized I wasn't as smart as I previously thought so with that their is the fear that I won't meet the expectations that I set for myself. 

Also that I choose the wrong major and that's not what I'm supposed to do with my life and that I wasted all that time and money on degree I'm never going to use. 

Punta Cana.

This last week me and my best friends and two boys who by the end of the trip became our good friends went to the beautiful place of Punta Cana. For those that don't know where that is, it's in the Dominican Republic.

Seeing how I am only so good with words I will explain the trip through photos.

Our excited selves pre-dolphin swim.

Let the record show, my first kiss was from a dolphin. 

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Jake had to do this twice. The dolphin was not down for letting him take a ride. 

Didn't even feel gross after I was so happy.

The group. We look like bosses.

Look at that thigh muscle, on the horse and me. 

I know he's filthy, but look at that face. 

Sometimes we're photogenic.

The view though. 

Do I seem adventurous cause I'm not. 

School for the youths. 

Part 3.

Well I actually didn't even think about blogging but a friend told me I should and once I realized that it had been a month and a half I figured it was time. Ha. 

So continuing on...

11- My family. 

Well I have two older brothers. I get along really well with my oldest brother, he's awesome. My other brother we're very different and he does his own thing but he's a good guy. 

My parents are pretty much the best. My mom is so sweet and is willing to do anything for her kids. She is pushing a boyfriend right now which is not okay but I can look past that. My dad is funny and supportive and is willing to do anything for his kids success. 

My family is pretty awesome. People will be/are lucky to marry into the family.

12- 5 boys I find attractive.

Well I don't really feel like posting names so will just state relations.

The boy I had a crush on it 10th grade til basically now... he was mentioned in an earlier post.

A missionary my friend wants me to date which isn't gonna work out which is a real shame.

My friends cousins that super cute. I really need to swing a date with this kid.

My cousins friend that's way cute. I actually want them to date but they don't like to listen to me. 

And for a last good looking resort, a teacher from my old high school. Married though, real shame. 

13- My opinion on my body.

Ha this is weird to post. I actually don't have too many issues with my body as far as body shape. I'm like really cool with my body. I kind have some skin issues but nothing that's traumatizing. Ha. I would definitely go for more curves, some junk in the trunk. Skinny girl problems existed. They can't be said as much, people get upset at you but it's a true thing. 

14- What I wore today.

Today, since it was a school day I didn't really get ready. My outfit was:

A V-neck t-shirt (it comfy)

Hollister zip-up (it was chilly this morning. 

Compression leggings (good thing I've never worked out it them...)

and knock-off keds (when you have as many shoes as I do, they can't all be quality) 

15- What's my zodiac sign? Does it fit?

Aries: Basically super blunt and confident and tough. Ha. This does kind of apply, it depends on what situation I'm in. I wish I was like that all the time, I would be so cool. I need to embrace the role of a sassy business woman. Ha. 

Part 2 of thirty day challenge.

I'm just jump right into it...

6- My views on mainstream music. 

There was a time where I was kind against mainstream music. I'm not crazy about it. I mostly like mainstream music cause it's nice to party to and it usually has a good beat to it. With that being said the music I listen to is not super off the grid. I listen to like Of Monsters and Men, Mumford and Sons, and so on. My biggest issue with mainstream music is that the lyrics are usually way stupid but sometimes it's funny which is where I'm okay with it. 

7- Five Pet Peeves. 

1. When people hoods are inside out.

2. Volume on the TV have to end in 5 or 0. 

3. The volume in my car just can't be a prime number. It's weird but it bothers me. 

4. When customers are on their phone at checkout.

5.  When people tell me I have too many shoes. Ha ha.

8- What I ate today.

Well seeing out it's ten o' clock in the morning and I've only eaten a bag of candy (the college life) I'll talk about what I ate yesterday.

For breakfast yesterday I ate waffles. Leggo my eggo.

For lunch I had this really good Costco chicken alfredo.

For dinner I was supposed to eat lasagna but I had to leave for a church activity so we just got Wendy's on our way home. I'm a Junior Bacon Cheeseburger kind of girl and also I fries kind of girl. 

9- How important do I think education is?

Very important. Like weirdly so. I'm not always the best that school, usually halfway through spring semester I'm kind of done but I force myself through it cause I don't comprehend how people take school so lightly. I couldn't imagine not going to school or not finishing school. 

10- First songs that play on shuffle in my music library.

1. I will wait- Mumford and Sons.

2. Heavy in Your Arms- Florence + the Maching

3. I'm Not Okay- My Chemical Romance

4. Breaking the Habit- Linkin Park

5. Summertime Sadness- Lana Del Ray

6. Your Bones- Of Monsters and Men

7. Corona and Lime- Schwayze

8. Lights- Ellie Goulding

9. You and I- Ingrid Michaelson 

10. One Day- Matisyahu 

Thirty day challenge in six parts.

The title on this is a little deceiving. I'm not doing some work out challenge or like a diet. It's simply something that you're supposed to write about yourself everyday in a journal for a month. And I started this during the New Year and I last about ten days. So I'm gonna answer five questions every so often. 

 

1- Five ways to win my heart:

    1. Bring me my favorite food and snacks. For real though. Most girls want flowers and song sung to them. Just come with my favorite food and we'll be good. It shows that you know me and don't just go with the mainstream gifts.

     2. Trust me: I hate having to explain myself to people about dumb stuff. If I say one thing I need you to just trust me and I'll have that same trust for you. 

     3. Give me time to open up: I'm pretty shy and first but given time I will open and feel more comfortable and you see how awesome I truly am :)

     4. Tell me nice things that you like about me, not really that I'm "pretty" or "hot" cause those will just in one ear and out the other. Tell something you like about my character or my weird quirks. 

     5. Make me experience life: I'm kind of a home body which I love, I really do, but I should get out more and do activities and go see things. We can also do cliche couples activities and just laugh at them. 

2- Something I feel strongly about:

I think having deep friendships with people is really important. Since I'm in college it's kind of expected to go out and party and make a bunch of new friends but ten years down the road those people won't matter. Plus I really only like to use my energy towards spending time with people I actually enjoy spending time with which is a classic case of introvertedness but I stand by it.

3- A book I love:

That's really hard for me to choose but I really like the book Edenbrooke and Dante's Inferno. I know, two totallly different books. 

Edenbrooke just cause the main character is so easy to relate to and the boy in it is amazing :)

Dante's Inferno I just love the symbolism and the depth that the book has. It's crazy and kind of gross but it's also poetic at the same time. 

4- Bullet point my day:

• Woke up at 7, dead tired.
• Went to school. 
• Came Home and caught up on some of my shows (Criminal Minds and Psych)
• Studied for my accounting test.
• Went to get Ice Cream with my friends Taylor and Makenzie.
• Came home and got ready for bed.

5- Things you want to say to and ex.

Well I've never had a boyfriend so with that comes no ex boyfriend. 

Quotes.

As I mentioned in another post that I did was that I do the whole pinterest thing. I look up recipes, I try to be crafty and creative, and I attempt to make myself look good with all the make-up and hair tips (I'm just still so lazy). 

Everyone that is on pinterest knows that there are some awesome inspirational quotes and I just want to share a 
few of my favorites ones. 

 

Most people have read or pretended to read to Kill a Mockingbird for school. And at least when I read it I didn't fully understand how great of a book it was. This quote from it, I think is amazingly true. Constantly everyone is being judged whether it be by themselves or other people. But people tend to forget that everyone is fighting their own secret battle and no one can truly understand until they've walked in their shoes. If everyone wore their hardships on their sleeves that I believe that we would live in a less judgmental world. 

 

Ah the beautiful Tom Hiddleston. Totally my celebrity love right now and not just cause of the beautiful face. I don't know if he actually said this quote but regardless of who said it, it's still true. So often you see the disrespect of woman but that doesn't mean that a man can stand from the crowd. Respect is something I feel is very important and it isn't something that should be taken lightly especially for someone you truly love. 

 I adore this quote. It has been my wallpaper for the longest time. People all the time believe that once a certain thing happens in their life than they can be happy. Why waste time wishing you were happy when you can just be happy. At time I catch myself doing thing especially now seeing everyone around me finding love and all that shiz but that's stupid. So what I don't have someone in my life right now, doesn't mean it's never going to happen. But while I'm waiting for that special someone I'm gonna have a good time and do my own thing. It's just hard to always keep that in mind but I'm getting better.

 If you've seen The Secret Life of Walter Mitty then you know what's up with this quote. In the movie though it said about a snow leopard but it applies to so much more. I believe people that make a scene or are loud just to be loud are more insecure about themselves then they are confident. If you are comfortable with yourself then you shouldn't feel the need to call attention to yourself. If you think you are beautiful then you'll let people know that as they get to know you over time.

This applies to my future man. Ha. As girls we have an idea of what type of person we want to be with. Most girls want someone that's "nice, funny, and smart". That covers a lot of boys ladies. I'm not saying get super specific but understand that people have their quirks. That something that I want it a man are quirks. I want you to be different and a little nerdy and be a little crazy at times. I'll be the same way and you better get used to it :)

It amazing how relaxing it is when you learn to not care what other people think. I mean I don't think you every fully get to a point to where you can do something and not even wonder what others are think but once you just embrace who you are, you're gonna find some awesome people in your life and it's totally worth it.